Thursday, September 12, 2013

Weekend plans, changes in life and the change of life

I've been a working mom for most of my children's lives.  I wasn't always happy about it but Mr. Saylor hasn't always been stellar at bringing home the bacon.  I'm a control freak so having a stable job was very important to me.  I've made some mistakes along the way in my career, I'm sometimes impulsive and don't always think before I speak.  Maybe age has caught up with me but over the past few years I've learned to just be patient.  With the job market being as it is I have just been thankful to have gainful employment.  However, there has always been a little voice in my head that wonders why?  Why can't I get an opportunity to grow?  Why do other less educated people get promoted? This bothered me because I went back to school in my mid 30's to finish my degree. I would ask myself what am I doing wrong?  I've prayed that God will allow me to find opportunities to grow and waited for an answer.  Well, I got I finally got it.  I finally got an opportunity that may move me forward to the next level.  It's going to be a challenge and my company is in a tough market but for now I'm going to thank God for answering my prayers and work my butt off to make this a success..

I'm at the age in a woman's life where menopause begins.  I just turned 50.  My monthly friend stopped showing up regularly for about a year or two now.  Lately I don't even remember when it last appeared.  The doctor said that you can't say you are in menopause until you go an entire year without menstruating.  I was just getting into that point and BAM, she shows up today while I'm at work!! Gotta luv it! Of course I have no feminine protection at home so I had to run to the local CVS.  I really didn't want to buy a big box and really didn't want to pay top $$ for the premium brands.  I picked up the generic CVS brands and thought "what a shame, you may never get a period again and you're going to go out with cheapy tampons?"  I bought the cheap ones anyway but I still felt a little bad.  I should do a celebration or something.  I wonder why we women don't celebrate the time in our lives when we pass from our child bearing years into freedom?  It's sad in a way to think that every egg we were born with is now gone.  The jar is empty.  On the other hand, it's a time to acknowledge a new beginning, a passing of the torch to the next generation of mothers and I am looking forward to the next chapter of life.  I'm also hoping that I won't need to buy another box of cheap tampons again!

Mr Saylor and Sgt Buzzkill are going hunting this Saturday so I'll have the house to myself.  I've got some projects planned.

This is the beginning of a fall project I will be doing.  Can't wait to post the finished pics.
Some heavy duty cleaning.  I'm going to wash down my kitchen cabinets.
This is part of another painting project I have planned.  I think it's going to be fun.
My sister is coming by on Saturday to do some crafts.  Miss Saylor is coming in from the city to go to a Nascar race with her bf so I'll get to spend some time with her. 
The weather is supposed to be in the 70's and I plan to spend some time in the garden cleaning things up. 
All in all it will end up being a working/crafting weekend.

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